In September 2015 I decided to take some time out and head to Thailand for an action packed holiday so I booked into a Muay Thai Training camp for a month.
I arrived at a beautiful town called Rai Wai in Phuket and was taken to Simbi a Muay Thai Training camp that was run by professional Muay Thai fighters.
I was informed that our first session would be at 7am and would consist of a long run, 20 minutes of skipping, then approx 2 hours of kickboxing training ranging from rounds with a trainer, bag work and sparring and this was taking place twice a day.
I had previously been doing weights and doing some kickboxing to keep fit so I thought I was up for the challenge and would easily be able to keep up. Little did I realise that this was my ego talking and I felt as though I had something to prove.
By the 3rd day my right calf had seized up, I could put no pressure on my right leg which meant i couldn’t kick, I had broken out in a heat rash. I was nearly at breaking point and I still had so much time left at the camp.
I realised that I needed a severe attitude shift – what was I actually trying to prove? Some of these people had been training for years so were conditioned for this type of training as well as in this heat.
I decided to pull my head in and just take in everything – use the time to learn and grow. Had I not checked in with myself and toned down my ego – I could have missed out on an amazing self discovery journey of life in the beautiful tropical surroundings of Thailand.
After experiencing this battle with my ego I wanted to explore more about the concept of ego in general so I read a book by Ryan Holiday. It’s an amazing read and you can find it here: https://www.amazon.com.au/Ego-Enemy-Master-Greatest-Opponent-ebook/dp/B01AWUTMB0/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1473291791&sr=1-1&keywords=ego+is+the+enemy
My favourite quote from the entire book was:
“When we remove ego, we’re left with what is real. What replaces ego is humility, yes—but rock-hard humility and confidence. Whereas ego is artificial, this type of confidence can hold weight. Ego is stolen. Confidence is earned. Ego is self-anointed, its swagger is artifice. One is girding yourself, the other gaslighting. It’s the difference between potent and poisonous.”
This really resonated with me. For most peolpe, it’s so easy to let your ego dominate your actions so being able to recognise and pull yourself up when your ego is trying to lead and cross over into a state of humility is a skill. It is definitely a constant battle and cycle of being aware as to where you are at and that requires you to be present in your life at all times and this will enable you to be the ultiamte version of yourself and to GLOW.
I’ll leave you with another quote from the lovely Ryan Holiday.
“One might say the ability to evaluate one’s own ability is the most important skill of all. Without it, improvement is impossible. And certainly ego makes it difficult every step of the way. It is certainly more pleasurable to focus on our talents and strengths, but where does that get us? Arrogance and self-absorption inhibit growth. So does fantasy and “vision.”